Each group of poems corresponds to a chapter of my life, follow the links to the first poems of each chapter.
138 poems written between March 2010 and September 2010.
The six months of haiku in this chapter chronicle my life and my feelings as I dealt with some painful experiences. During this time I grew emotionally, I learned a lot about the world, and I became close to new friends. By the end of this trying time, I realized important truths about myself, about love, and about loneliness.
156 poems written between September 2010 and February 2011.
During the five months I wrote these haiku, I found myself drawn to elemental energies. In particular, I felt the wind. Scientifically, wind is the mixing of different bodies of air as they rise and fall. To me, wind is about change, serendipity, opportunity, and renewal.
Air is essential in our lives, and it is frequently taken for granted. There's a lightness to air, and similarly there's a lightness in many of these poems. This chapter is about my spirit reconnecting with nature and the world. It is in this chapter that my spirit breathes again, mixing energy and life back into me.
115 poems written between March 2011 and July 2011.
The Spring of 2011 was a wonderful time for me: I found a new love, I found Peace for a while, and I felt a renewed connection to family, friends, and nature. My positive and optimistic mind carried out into the world, and these poems are a history and glimpse of this beautiful time.
95 poems written between July 2011 and July 2012.
The Spring and all it's beauty had passed, and in it's place I found an increasingly troubled mind. The relationship I had so strongly yearned for had broken apart, I faced wave after wave of layoffs where I saw my friends leave, and the home I thought I found started to feel flimsy. These challenges affected my words, as well as my productivity. I wrote far fewer poems in this time; a few less than 100 poems over the course of an entire year.
65 poems written between September 2012 and December 2013.
65 poems in 16 months… This was a hard and emotionally draining time for me. Another relationship failed, I secretly slept in a hammock in an art studio when everyone left, and eventually – I gave up my Bodhi for adoption. It was an extremely trying time, but it was very beneficial to me. Ultimately, I found myself with nothing to lose, and ironically, I ended up gaining so much.
Some of my most favorite poems are in this chapter. Even though I can almost still feel the aches and pains from when I slept in the back of my truck a few times during these months, I still can't help but smile. After all, as my Lily told me while I was falling in love with her: “You aren't homeless, just temporarily house-less. You bring your home with you.” My response was a deep embrace.
100 poems written between December 2013 and August 2014.
The nine months and 100 poems of this chapter are filled with so many memories. I found the security to explore, and write about, aspects of my sexuality during this time. New friends welcomed me into their lives and hearts, which felt so wonderful after the trying times preceding these. The time was a pleasant, and most vibrant, dance under the stars.
100 poems written between August 2014 and February 2015.
This period started with me exploring a polyamorous relationship, and it ended with the relationship's dissolution. Although it does chronicle some of the great joy and sadness I experienced during this time, this chapter of poems is more than just a documentation of history. During this period I experimented with new forms and techniques in my poetry, while I personally experimented with alternative relationship structures.
The excitement of this time was also temporarily soured by a pharmacological depression. At the end of this chapter, I said goodbye to some of the factors that had become a drain on not only my mental health, but of the health and well being of those that I loved as well. Although I do not care to believe in regret, I will say that the lessons I learned from the experiences of this chapter will never be forgotten.
91 poems written between February 2015 and June 2015.
A restart – a reboot. In these 91 poems, written over a period of six months, I try to regain my footing and right myself. Ironically, this period ended with a new challenge; I was laid off.
I wanted a fresh start, and the universe delivered more than I bargained for. I wanted to complete my New Year's resolution of 'finding another job,' while I still had the security of the job I wanted to leave… Oh well!